(I will be so impressed if anyone knows where that quote is from) Anyways... I've been feeling like such a loner lately. Or maybe it would be more accurate to say I've been "lonely" lately...except I don't feel as though I've been lonely....just alone. I've been keeping really busy but something feels "off." I hate to be a complainer. In reality, my life is SO good right now....I just feel like I'm "going it alone" lately. I've also had this huge desire to be with my family constantly these past few weeks. I NEVER want to take for granted what a wonderful family I have. I dread the realization that my family will not be around forever. In a way I like being a "loner"... It makes me feel alittle less "needy" and alittle more self-sufficient and independent. But, at the same time, I like people. I enjoy good conversation. I enjoy being able to "love on" people. I LOVE to laugh and be interactive. My priorities lately have been sleeping, working and working out. And, while I'm feeling fairly disciplined, I'm not feeling very "fruitful," if you will... ...Perhaps I'm just going through the motions. Lord, I just ask that you fill me with your JOY. I ask that your light shine so bright in my life that it knocks me to the ground. I ask that you fill me with LOVE... for others, for life, for YOU. I ask that my words and actions praise YOU. Use me Lord! None of this is my own...my body, my life...it is YOURS. Take it! Use it! Speak to me. Speak through me. Guide my priorities. Help me to see the urgency in sharing You. Lord be with the lost, the lonely, the broken, the hurting. Lord I ask that you come to those who are searching. I LONG for the day when you come back and reveal Yourself to this world as Lord and Savior...I long to see people gather in the streets to fall and worship you openly. Oh, to see the day when your truth is revealed! Until then, let your Holy Spirit be SO present among us...And let your grace, mercy and love REIGN. In Your Son's Name. | 
Helloooo Bi-Polar! 
